Tuesday, December 06, 2005

The Good Enough Mother

What do you do when you have so much to say that you just cant say? What to do you do when you have so many thoughts and feelings just racing around you and you know that nothing you can do or say will matter? What do you do when you see the ones you love hurting so bad and you know that their pain is so real and so raw yet something you cant comfort, something you cant control or change? How do you look into the eyes of someone you love and see the unbelievable fear and tell them it will be ok when you honestly have no idea how anything will ever be ok or the same again? What do you do when you love someone so much you feel their pain in such a deep uncommunicable way, when you desperatly want to reach out and tell them you get it and are hurting right along with them but knowing you cant because if you did you might risk undermining the enormity of their pain, their loss, their fear? I love someone this much, and watching this person hurt, seeing the pain and loss and fear in her eyes leaves me feeling completely inadequate and just stupid.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

(((RENEE)))))

Margaret said...

holdin you...cause thats all i can do...nothing is going to make that hurt go away but time...so i am holdin you in the mean time...

peace...

Mommy said...

no day but today..............
hugs
rae

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