Lazy Day

What I wouldnt give for a lazy day! Im so burnt out and would give anything to just sit here in my office drink coffee and read blogs all day. I have about an hour before Marissa's PT gets here and then I have to take Olivia to school. This afternoon I have Emily's parent teacher confrence and her IEP. Yet here I sit...still in my flannel pj pants drinking coffee and reading blogs...all the kids are still in bed(which is about as awesome and amazing as it gets) Weve had a pretty crappy week. I had to let our nurse go. I liked her so much, I didnt really mind having her around but after 7weeks of telling her what to do everyday and finding things undone and done wrong over and over I just couldnt take it anymore. I was terrified to let her go because I was afraid who theyd send next. I cant say the new nurse IS worse yet...but I dont feel relaxed around her. She makes me a nervous wreck. Im so tired of having people in my house all day. Its a damned if you do damned if you dont because I really DO need the help. This new nurse will be here from 6-4 Tuesday-Friday and another nurse will work Mondays 6-4. Im so stressed about it. I just want to call the agency and tell them I dont want a nurse anymore and do it on my own. I did it on my own for almost a year. But then the kids all started school and whew, I have to be in 3places at once now as it is, adding in her intense care and needs on my own makes it all just too much for one person. sigh.