Wow!

I got an.....A on my fundamentals final! WOW! I ended up finishing fundamentals with an 89% I really hoped to jump to 90% and end with an A, but Ill take that 89% :D Our class dropped to 15, and then we gained two more..And then, lost another...... ME! Yeah I left after Fundamentals. I'm sad about it, BUT I know I made the right decision. Things fell apart at home, badly. The kids weren't ok, as much as I wanted to believe they were fine, they weren't. They started acting out and regressing. Mackenzie cried every morning when we dropped her off and every evening when we picked her up from the time we picked her up until she went to bed. Shana was frazzled and at the end of her rope. Emily acted oblivious, and then began regressing badly. I'm heart broken, but I know I made the right decision. I made some great friends, one in particular(Steven)and Kaili and Jamie and and and, ok I made alot of great friends and I miss them sorely. I still talk to Steven off and on all day long so that's nice, and he called me tonight(and it made my day!). Since I completed fundamentals I can go back at a later date(?) We'll see. I was able to gain a new perspective while I was in school, it helped me to see so many things that I wasn't able to see before. I recognise now just how important it is to really take time out(and I don't mean on the computer or phone) but to really GET out and DO something constructive that makes me feel productive and allows some meaningful interaction with other adults. My training hour requirements are about to go WAY up so I think that will help. They are mandatory and frequent so its a start! I would also like to start taking a few classes at my local community college--classes that I will need eventually anyway. I think Ill just start with one and go from there. In other news we have a new family member...well almost. We are still waiting to get more specifics but we are hopeful that a special little girl, Cassie will be joining our family soon! We were able to go meet her today and we are all quite smitten! I will update when we know more. :D