So tomorrow is D day

and D is for Dentist. Im trying not to think about it. Keeping busy today and tonight going out with our so cal les moms group to a concert. We are to be there at 8am tomorrow. No food or drink after midnight *I AM still going to nurse her though* She'll be getting her very first shot tomorrow, they say its a tiny needle and that before she knows what happen she'll be on her way to sleep. They are telling me it should take 2.5-3hrs under general. I hope she comes out of it ok. I know myself when ever Ive been under I haven't come out well. Shana is taking the day off work and we'll just go home and watch movies and rest after. Saturday we are going out with Rae, Donna and Rhonda. My mom has agreed to babysit for us(yay spending money for herself!) Im just hoping Olivia is up to it. Atleast she'll be with my mom. Monday marks the 5year anniversary of Shana's moms death. I cant believe its been 5years, in so many ways it feels like just yesterday.... Im not sure but Im assuming we will go to the cemetery. It's taken her so long to begin this grieving process...She is making positive strides right now(including her willingness to go to the grave site, last month was only the first time we've gone since her funeral) and she's finally decided to start counseling. Its so hard for me to try and figure out how to best support her when my own mother lives here in our house with us, I know that Shana resents the fact that my mother and I are so close and that her mother is gone. So many hard hard emotions.