Moving on up!

Im usually on LJ but thought Id venture to Blogger and give it a try! Really was a lot simpler than I expected! I start this blog as I begin a new journey in my life. I am now offically trying-to-concieve our SECOND child. This is such a mindblowing experience for me. Trying to concieve our first was scarey in its own right but really REALLY exciting. For one I dont think I had a clue what we were in for, and in a way knowing actually makes this even a bit scarier for me! Not so much scared about the TTC process in itself, oddly I really feel a sense of peace about ttc. I'm more worried about being pregnant and I am *really* nervous about giving birth again. I really need this blog as a place where I can really dig deep here and find some peace about my birth with Olivia and some SELF CONFIDENCE in myself that I CAN do it agian. Ok I know I CAN do it. I know that dispite what I might think in labour, I will infact LIVE through it. What I need is to WANT it again, to look forward to this new babies birth! I need it for me and I need it for our new baby. I imagine as I work through my birth experience that topics such as past child abuse, birth rape, and PTSD will come up. Ofcourse I dont intend to use this blog exclusively for this purpose but I think its safe to say its why Ive created it.